Nitro von Borax

Song #1 I Can’t Say That I Do Recall

I can’t say that I do recall
the times we met & how I’d fall
A little more in love with every breath
I can’t remember how you taste
Or when you left or how I chased
You, then gave up to drink myself to death
I can’t recall each perfect breast
I forgot the Lord will test
You, tearing out the heart that dares to love
& I forget each moment &
Each single second that we’d spend
Like I forget the moon & stars above

(C:) I can’t say that I do recall a thing that never were
I can’t remember that you said that’s what you would prefer
So I forget my happiness & I forget your shame
& I’ve forgot you, Jennifer; I can’t recall your name.

I don’t recall- you crossed the street?
How happy I was that you’d meet?
I don’t remember every word you said
I forget how you came to me
All naked in duplicity
I can’t remember you here in my bed
I don’t remember your left hand
Or if you wore your wedding band
Or how I tried to take you from your place
That birthmark on your side right there
Your secrets & your golden hair
Forgotten like a blowing scrap of waste
(C.)
I forget you were never mine
I don’t recall your valentine
And I forget those green eyes sparkling
I don’t remember that I hoped-
Can’t bring you to my mind- yeah, nope.
I can’t say that I do recall a thing.
(C.)

Song # 2. Gas Station Rose

She pushed my change back from behind the Plexiglass
& she wet her lips and smiled
Asked me why I always had to leave so fast,
With her dark eyes deep & wild
My head was swimmin’ in the fumes of gasoline
As I stuttered in surprise
As laughing she said stuff that some might call obscene
But from her it sounded nice
(C:) She has a run in her dimestore pantihose
& she knows that life’s a bitch
That ain’t my worry now as my gas station rose
Leaves me some flowers in a ditch

I made small talk for fourteen minutes acting tough
Not too convincing, I suppose
We agreed to meet that night for Chicken in the Rough
Me & my gas station rose
I was grinnin’ so I must have looked insane
As  I drive into the cold
I was near Saginaw when I called out her name
As I l tried to keep control
(C.)
Just one more icy curve on Freeway Seven-Five
I just couldn’t hold the road
I guess it’s good I felt so good to be alive
As I felt the load explode 
& now she’s come out from behind the Plexiglass
With her flowers cold & froze
Standin’ in the  snow & cryin’ by the overpass
My lonesome gas station rose.
(C.)

Song # 3. Quit on Me

I don’t suppose she knows she’s lonely
Waiting but she does not phone me,
Petrified, ‘cause she sure stoned me
There’s the plot-she has rezoned me

How I paid but can’t procure her
Dropped the hook I got to lure her
Stuck it out but couldn’t stir her
Was she sick? Or did I cure her?

‘Cause (C:) she quit on me, quit on me
Claimed I was a chain and she’d be free
Thought for sure I’d fit her, swore she warn’t a quitter
And she never did quit: Quittin’ on me

Thought our love was somethin’ special
She thinks it’s a sunken vessel
All she sees is some big mess she’ll
Walk away from, I’m so desol
Ated by this cruel betrayal
I fought poorly & I failed
Never knew our love was frail
Until the day she up and bailed-
And (C.)

(B:)She quit fakin’, she quit making herself up to look real nice
Quit pretending, she quit spending her time in our paradise
She quit tryin’, she quit lyin’, she quit smokin’ cigarettes,
She quit lovin’, quit a nothin’ she kept in her oubliette.

I hate to miss her. It’s so hard, it
Hurts to be so disregarded
Cast out, in cold seas, uncharted,
Drifting, broken, broken-hearted
I knew that we had some friction
I got treated like affliction
Shaken off like some addiction
My embrace was her constriction
So (C.)